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worst new yr eve ever!!

Wad a fucked up day i have!
new year eve? such a stopid day!
i'm rottin, rottin at home! doin NTH!!
yea i mean NTH! no mood to go out!
is rainin heavily outside!!! worst
new year eve ever!
no mood to do anything! wanted to
change my blog skin but didnt!
i dun have the damn mood! not at all..
this yr no countdown, no celebration,
no NOTHING for me!
oh yea and the best 'present' for the last
day of year 2004 is `*FUCK YOU`*
i got pissed off jus bcos of tt!
oh and tt 'present' is from CHUA CHEN SWEE!
yea he called me lk so many fuckin times!!
he told me his is sick! and ask me to show
concern!! argh!!! fuck u!!! do u noe i'm dyin?
and u keep callin my name! wad for??
pls i dunnoe how to show concern!
i aint a human! happy!? i simply dun give a
fuck abt how sick u r okay!!! i'm not good at
expressin my feelins so yea if u think i aint
good enough to be ur fren u all can jus fuck off!
get the hell out off my sight! coz i'm always lk tt!
i dun show concern or maybe i do, but i dun
noe how to concole or show concern in the
way tt u expected from me!!!
i've got my probs and u dun seem to give a
fuck abt it! wad u always do is to irritate me!
u r so irritatin! do u noe tt! not all times!
but most of the times!!! i'm born in thhis world
aint for u to scold when u r sad! aint for u to scold
when the moment i sign in to MSN! i had enough!
u always think tt u r jk ONLY yea tts wad u think!
but how do u react when ppl scold u! how
do u feel? seriously i'm here aint for u to scold!
aint for u to show ur fucked up attidude!
u think ur the only one who can show attidude yea?
think abt it! if u can show other ppl tt fucked up
attidude of urs why cant we show attidude to u!
is logical..
my last day of year 2004 in my whole life
is ruin by U and tt freakin weatheR!!!

[[ worst new year eve ever!!]]

`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 7:02 PM;__

end of the year!

a year of joy, tears, laughter has gone by!
and soon we await 2005! very soon! reall
soon! erm tml? new yr eve? haha time
really fliessss.
this yr.(2004) uexpectedness.
hate, headaches, pain, sadness,
and all sort of feelings.
wud really lk to bid farewell to this yr.
close another chapter in my life .
i'm gettin ready to open a new chapter
in my life. and hopefully the new chapter
will be much better !
and hopefully a chapter of frenship with
him will never be close. if worst come to
worst not meetin him or tokin to him
at all, he will forever be in my heart.
now , i still cant accept the fact tt we cant
hang out as b4. deep down, i accept the fact
tt i have to face the future.
i jus cant keep on hidin, kipin my heart for him.
even there is another person in my life,
HE who made me smile,
made me laugh,
made me angry,
made me cry,
made me suprised
will be the first one who occupied my heart.
i dun give a damn abt other cute guys
but he who has bein ther for me all these yrs
will be the first one who i must first thanks.
thx for makin my life so meaningful,
u will always be in my heart, forever there.
you'r forever in my heart,
smile, tears of all my life.
and if god choose, i shall but love the better
after death.
thx u so much, u will always be in my heart,
in my life forever there. thank you.
three little words i must say - i love u -

-let us bid farewell to this yr and
close another chapter in our life
and get ready to open a new chapter.-

-jia you everybody.-
-Happy New Year- =]

`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 2:39 PM;__

tired

I"M SO DAMN TIRED!!!
argh.. i'm seriously lack of sleeep..
i feel so weak!
went out with my bros and chenjie.
yea we went town.. i was lk so damn sleepy!
such a tiring day .. i dun seem to have the
mood for shoopin. i'm really too tired.
didnt buy much things eh a shirt and a jacket..
pkay so pink jacket.. not bad tho..
we went out at arn 2 den came back at 10.15.
and i rushed for work.
fuckin tired! can imagin how tired i was?
i'm still damn tired now! yeas NOW!!
dying mann.. soon very soon.
dun feel lk typin any longer.. even tho
so much things happend.. nvm.. next time maybe.

suddenly got the urge to see him,
hear his voice, since the day we break till now
i've not seen him. okay i miss his voice!
boii u noe tt? hais bet u dont. coz ur BUSY all
day long.. u dun have the TIM E! yea ur BUSY!
hais.. wadde fcuk m i tokin.. forget it..
nobody will ever understand!..
it hurts this fuck-up feeling hurt
me jus far too much! cant stand it any more.
arghhhh i got so fuck up!!!

-i got a heart full of pain, a head full of stress.
handful of anger held in my chest-

`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 2:21 PM;__

i'm sucha lamer..

okay i'm such a lamer.
suppose to meet veron at cck mrt at
8.45 but we end up late AGAIN!
and so 'qiao' tt we took the same mrt.
lols okay kinda lk 'xing you ling xi'?
okay so she passed me the hair cream tt
i ask ting jian to buy lah. erm...
I AM SUCH A LAMER! okay i was lk
stylin my hair inside the Lrt and Roy
was jus sittin opp. us? lols he didnt dare
to look at our direction, so weird!
okay so basically the whole journey
from cck to jelapang i was stylin my hair!
=] lols. yep told ya tt i'm such a lamer.! =.=
the new sch is really BIG okay not gonna
tok abt it coz i did mention tt before!
so to west view look for Jon's mum! Aunty!!!
okay with steph, yuan mei & rowenna.
kinda pissed at first coz no matter
how hard i tried to ask rowenna to go
but she still refussed! so i jus walk away
but in the end she still came lah.. =]
thx u rowenna!!! happy?
okay so aunty treat me and rowenna to
lunch.. soon jon came and we went lrt to
meet Ben and guo nian. erm half way there
saw manda they all so asked them to join us
but obvioously they didnt want to!
so nvm.. erm yep went causeway with jon,ben,
& guo nian, okay this time i'm the only gal
there AGAIN! hais.. but is okay lah frens wad.
did i mention tt guo nian treat us to watch the
Kung Fu. nice movie.. so damn funny!! must watch!
so yep came back home arnd 5.30 cos i'm really
tired . i didnt slp! i'm dyin i'm lack of slp!
okay so i guess the 3 of them still there! hais..
kinda boring eh.. expected him to go but
ended up guoo nian told me tt he cant make it
coz got soccer tranin.. hais...
boii u said we r best frens but y is it tt u didnt even
have time for ya best fren?


-disappointed- =[

[[ i pray tt soon ur face will fade away]]

`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 5:52 PM;__

feelin low.

after the 2 nights and 3 days at veron's hse
finally i came back home yesterday.
the first thing i step into my room,
i hugggg my 'big mouth' hehex 'he' is so
CUTE!!! was on my bed all alone for 2 nites.
omg i miss big mouth so much.. hehex i
had 'his photo in my hp yep so basically
the big mouth is with me every single day.
bleah my mum said i'm rich i cut my hair lk
twice a month! =]
oh did i ment tt b4 i came back from verons hse..
i was acctually in her room stylin my hair
usin ting jians hair cream!! lols i was sitttin
there stylin my hair lk for an hour. lols.
but kinda look no diff at all eh.. sob sob.
went out with mj to causeway to change
my bag.. den n went to eat lunch and pay
my phone bill! okay so SHOPPP all the way
till arnd 7pm.. oh did i ment tt mj is sucha
lamerr.. oh and the when i make my payment
for the bill the lady at the counter was lk
damn funny! last word of her sentence she
will sure add a ya! .. lols sound lks shes
pronoucin the 'duck' in chinese!! LOLS..
me and mj were lk laughin our heads offff..
lolss so funny sia.. well i bet u dun noe wad
i'm tokin abt.. lols nvm...
bleahh.. now feelin kinda down.. dunnoe
y also.. hais..
lets hope tml will be better.. =]
oh yep tml goin to new sch..
kinda worry tt DM gonna catch me for
my hair again... dunnoe y lah always find
fault with me ... motherf____k...

`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 9:02 PM;__

merry christmassss!

-MERRY XMAS!!!-
aint at home now.. hahass
well i dun seem to miss home at all!=)
i'm now at veron hse! yep stayed
here for lk 2days alr.. haha. and tml 3rd day!!
yesterday went orchard with mj & veron!
omfg.. so crowded sia.. the atmosphere is gd -duh..
but didnt really enjoy ourselves there!
we cant find a place to have our dinnner!!!
and we were alr lk so damn hungry! hais
so walk arnd lookin for pizza hut but cudnt
find! argh soo went to some sort of ra-man shop
to eat.. didnt stay there for the count down
thingy. went to shop for wallet and bag!
but only bought a billlabong wallet!
the bags there not very nice lah..
so went back home at arnd 11 plus.
after tt went to the play ground downstair.
we sat there till lk goin to 12 lah
so went back to veron's hse gettin ready
to send some of our frens a sms.. haha..
yep and stuff lah so we slp lk arnd 3am plus!
haha so today wake up at 10am.
TIRED!!! -didnt really have the
xmas mood! hais. dunnoe wad happen.
so went to causeway to look buy bag!
yep and we bought a billabong bag!
not so bad lah but dunnoe how it gonna
looks lk when we wear sch U...
oh yep i CUT MY HAIR AGAIN!
this time is really short! i mean
the top part lah but bottom still can tie up
lah oh and thx goodness my 'tail' still there!
hahas. thinkin of how to style my hair!lols
hais came back to her hse at arnd 2 plus
oh and play maple! lols..
was kinda fun lah..
few hrs only lvl 8 liao leh.. lols...
okay so kinda lk rottin after tt lah..
kip touchin my hair lols. tryin to style it!
=( dun have the gatsby wax clay and gel!
so cant really style it lah.. all at home!!
argh gonna steal some from my bro when
i'm back home! hahas....
nth much le... yep mj went home le.
she stay 1 nite only! =(
yep so tonite left me and veron!!
argh.... gonna rape her! =X hahas...
well shall stop here.. is gettin late! and
veron is waitin for me on the bed now!
cyas...

`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 11:24 PM;__

Disco party was fun?!
yea met veron at admiralty Mrt
station at anrd 12.30pm but we both
LATE as usual! well strange eh.
everytime when i meet veron,
sure enough she will be later then me!
but everytime when we meet other ppl
well every time we're LATE! sorrie ppl!
wads wrong with us eh? lk yesterday
Teng and rowenna waited for me lk
so long at jelapang LRT.
oh and chenswee wait for me even
longer lk 20 mins? omg omg! really sorrie!
so went for the DISCO PARTY!
(zodiac ladies networkz party!)
hahas well was kinda borin coz
only me and veron went! teng and rongxin
didnt wanna go! coz too EX($20) and
no time too! hais.. but was kinda fun lah.
love the musics there! love the DJ mann .
he so damn pro can? hahas.
oh we played games and stuffs then we
were asked to DANCE!! oh mann..
well we didnt really dance lah jus
move our body here and there. kinda SHY!
so basically we were there lookin at those
chio bu dancin. haha. oh and there was
this gal she damn bloody hell funny k.
well not she funny but the way she dance!
oh mann laugh our heads off! hahas.
and another gal she dance 'pole dance!'
haha damn funny also! eeek but kinda
gross lah! LOLS. shes really power mann.
she can dance lk for 1 hrs plus eh NON STOP!!
omg!!so get to noe some frens . den arnd 4+
me and veron went plaza Sing. to haunt
for cloths. window shoppin again! hais
didnt manage to buy anithin tho.
we suppose to go home at7pm but we
didnt wanna play the game so we left
earlier! so on the way home we still
tok abt the 2 gals! LOLS.
and some stuffs lah.. so we went yew tee
basamalam(spellin?). bought few T-S.
and went back home arnd 6.30pm!

`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 7:35 PM;__

hais another fuckin day!

-last nite-
oh mann i got so pissed off
i'm jealous of her? yeash her!
i'm so jealous! and the feelin
no body wud ever understand!
it hurts mann.. my heart somehow
seems lk not beatin anymore!
due to tt i can hardly breathe!
wtf . i got hurt so easily? how cum?
y is it lk this?
oh and she didnt noe tt she hurt me
ofcus HE didnt noe a fuckin thing too!
i told him tt i got mood swing and stuff
guess wad he replied? hahaha.
tts all! he is so damn happy
to see me in ths state? yea he
admited tt he is happy everyday!
hey y cant i jus be lk him?
y am i sufferin ! why ? why ? WHY?

-today-
so tired mann. my eyes r in pain!
dunnoe y but jus in pain!
sth wrong? hais who cares aniway!
hopefully i get blind and i dun have
to suffer` so much! hope so!
okay so went to our new skool!
it is BIG! some how looks lk
Chinese high eh the buildina all
link together! and the class rooms
r biggg! yea altogether 7 fans in each
class. ohh mann great!
so went to buy books but most of the
books r all sold out! fuckk... so yea
manage to get tt pathetic 4 book in
total! so went arnd to `explore` the
new skool. is big really big!
well overall still not bad lah jus tt
i dun really lk the colours of the buildin!
oh and one great news! the detantion
rooom got aricon!! oh mann GREAT!!
hahas.. hais ppl lk me sure every time
need to visit there ! so yea is COOL!
hahas.
so after tt went to buy the skool skirt!
LOLS. is lk so damn LOOOOOOOONG!
lols, wanna ask my mum to cut it short!
i look so weird with the LOOOOONG skirt
i'm is really far tooo long eh.
so went to have our lunch at senja grand.
erm smsed jon or is it his mum? okay both
replied me ! hahas and told them i was jus
downstair their hse. so awhile later we saw
aunty!! hahas miss her alot alot!
yep and den saw jon an sophia! okay jon's
hair is lk so damn freakin LONGG!
bois u gotta have a haircut soon eh!
so tok awhile den we took taxi to lot 1.
went to popular to get the rest of the books
but still left few not more stocks lah.
yea went window shoppin? hais so sianz so
decided to go libary and give our legs a break.
and after tt we went NTUC we bought sushi!
nice nice nice sushi!!!

-[wo Hui Xue Zhe Fang Qi Ni,
Shi Ying Wei Wo Tai Ai Ni!]-

-[Hao Xiang Wang Ji Ni]-
-[Ba Ni Chong Wo De Ji Yi Li
Man Man De Xiao Chu Diao]-

`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 7:23 PM;__

boring day.

okay i cant sleep again!! i'm sick!
well i'm not lah jus kinda not use to it.
last nite i log off at arnd 12 plus and
this mornin i wake up arnd 4?
couldnt slp.. so was lyin on my bed
doin nth useful? got off my bed arnd 8 am
so online and stuff. oh chat with Dean again.
hahas kinda addicted to chattin with him.
and as usual we tok alot of craps.
he claims tt i'm headless and stuff!
wad a joke? lols oh had a nice conversation
with him! he cheers me up! feel totally gd!
after tt called teng but she havent wake up?
smsed her and ask her to give me a call
after she get the msg. so yea she called.
and we decided to meet up at lot 1.
okay so i asked chenswee along! first time
i 'date' him?! and guess wad?
he said he not free! wtf.. my first time jus
gone lk tt? oh mann got so damn pissed with
him. so took mrt and went to lot 1 to meet teng!
and on the way chenswee called? tok loads of craps!
which i totally dun give a fuckin damn! coz ..
cos my 'FIRST' time jus GONE lk tt!
fine! boi next tiime i will jus say:
'ben xiao jie mei kong' tts it!
fuck tt!
had our lunch at LJS. and shop for awhile
and i bought a blusher-makeup thingy-
hahas i got the right one finally!
oh and we saw amanda,pei pei, wei jie,
yvoone, jasmine,wan jun they all at lvl 4.
so apparently manda didnt even see me!
oh gosh! my heart broke into zillion
bits and piecessss! i was so sad but i didnt
say a single thing pretent tt i was so
damn ALRIGHT! wadde fuck rite?
i missed her so much and i even smsed
her to show tt i really missed her lk hell
and she jus send me a msg tru` frenster
sayin tt she changed her hp no. fuckk tt.
so okay fine but at least she still manage
to see tt msg! so yea she said she didnt see
me she only saw Huiteng ALONE?
hello gal? i was jus RIGHT BESIDE her!
how can u didnt notice me? u gave an excuse
tt u didnt noe i cut my hair?
hello? u saw me the other day when i
went to sch for band prac okay?! and
tt time my hair was alr short!
oh mann i got so heart broken sia.!
DEAR MANDA DO U NOE HOW MUCH
I MISS YA? oh gosh i sound so lessbian.
well i aint les. i m normal! jus tt i miss
my fren far too much! she she didnt
even notice me when i saw her!
wad is this world cumin to? oh mann..
okay forget it!
so we went to send the christmas cards!
so qiao teng she oso send 15 cards eh! me too!
well ppl if u all receive the cards pls inform
me k?
the 15 ppl are:
-4 asses`
-Hui wen
-geokpoh
-alicia
-natalie
-sheena
-nerissa
-Huimiang
-vicky
-jon
-darren koh
-zk
and i gonna send few more includin:
*Amanda
*Huimin
*Rowenna
*chenswee

.[[if u had been hurt greatly,also
means u haf been greatly in love?]].
how true is it?

`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 5:46 PM;__

phewww i feel good !

Oh mann i relised tt i cant slp at nite!
i'm used to sleepin durin day time..
basically i only managed to slp for lk
3 hrs last nite! coz i cant sleep!
wtf! my eyes jus didnt wan to close
up! i was starin at the ceiling and
think of the past! well this time better
at least wad i thought of were such
sweet memoriesss! =) okay so nvm!
erm den get off my bed at arnd 6.30am
wow really early mann.. so online! but
nobody to chat to! =(
went to bugis with my younger bro
and chenjie! =) he bought a bag!
i bought my bro a bag too!!! i'm sucha nicee
sis aint i? hehex =P well the bag cost lk
38 buck after e discount is lk 34? okay
so i bought myself a Vondutch bag!
well is cool tho. is white and the wordings
r pink! and is round! hehex kinda nice la..
coz me $18! awww my $50 bucks goneee!
so went went edge to for awhile coz they
dun wanna shop!!! lk wtf! next time dun
wanna go out with them ! no more!
okay so came home at arnd 5pm
so we went down to the basketball court
(jus beside my buildin) oh mann cool! is
brand new!!! and guess wad? we r acctually
the first one in the whole wide world to
use tt court! COOOLL! hehex so played
till abt 7pm and we went back home!
so online and tt dean de devil came to
chat with me and he claims tt i'm
becomin wild and wacky??? wtf!!!
i aint wild!!! okay wadever! have a damn
nice chat with him ! honestly we dun have
so call nice chat since since since??
cant rmb when! okay so yup he got a
damn bloody hell good memory!
he acctually remembered tt their skool
USED to spread tt gilby aka Gilbert
kana raped by me?
WTF!!! and he remembered them all?
omg omg!!! OMG!!! i raped Gilby?
hello i wud have raped a better ones!!
lols.. so okay wadever! tts jus RUMOURS!!
he brighten up my day mann.!
dude u rawks! no one has ever actually
brighten up my day since wad happened
a couple of weeks ago but U, U brightened
up my day mann.. hahax .. thx!


-I RAPED DEAN SEAH not long ago!-
hahas!!!
Ended Story`*

`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 8:54 PM;__

phewww i feel good !

`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 8:53 PM;__

CHENSWEEEEE

hey CHENSWEE!!!
'I LOVE U'!!!
okay hey ppl now pls go
www.yahoo.com and search
for chenswee
hahas try it out..
oh well me now on the phone with CHENSWEE..
okay at least to kill my loneliness.
so yups tok to him on the phone
at least i cant shout my lung out!
and laugh lk hell.. okay i'm feelin
good at this very moment!
cya..=)

-i miss him so badly! y is it tt
i still can get myslef back?-

`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 3:12 PM;__

argh.. finger nail broke..

Arghh.. my right hand tt index
finger nail BROKE!!
aww.. painnnn and now is lk so damn
short and it looks so damn weird!
all the fingernails r so damn long!
but left my right index and left
thumb! wtf.. aww me hearbroken sia..
keep so long alr and now it broke.. =(
the worst thing is tt IT LOOKS WEIRD!
the whole hand looks weird with tt
short index fingernail! =( bleahh..

-shud i cut all?-

`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 8:46 AM;__

mr tan's treat!

Hais life sucks? agree?
okay at least to me lah!
erm went out with Mr gilbert tan,
Teng, rowenna and huimin to lot 1.
coz mr gilbert gonna treat us to MAc.
haha how nice rite. so erm from 1pm
we sat at Mac there till lk 4 plus! oh man..
we crap alot alot alot.! lots of stuffs. gilbert
hes nice teacher la. well he dun look lk
our teacher at all mor elk our frens!
poor thing next yr he cant teach us coz
he goin for dunnoe wad course lah
den train to be a teacher! okay wadever la
GooDLucK Mr Gilbert Tan..
hehex oh thx for the mac ..
erm after the long long long chat at mac..
we went to shop and we walk arnd! rowenna
left earlier.. haiz.. was kinda sianz lah ..
oh well i bought some christmas cards..
hehex dunnoe who to send well but i will
think abt it first. hehex. and teng bought
the cards too.. =)
so went to look for stamps but NO luck!
all sold out! lk wtf sia...
haiz so nvm we then walk arnd
oh saw melvin, jenson,chingleon(spellin?)
omg i relised tt lot 1 is really damn small !
we go every we also see these guys.
haiz saw them lk more than 4 times?
omg omg... wad a SMALL lot 1! LOLS..
okay so saw michelle and her frens too!
(all sec 2s.) eh nth much lah oh i bought
2 pairs of earins hehex nice nice.. pink
and black. acctually wanna buy the square
shape earin ring but then the gal bside
me too greedy she took the LAST 2
which r the same! okay so nvm...
i bought other shapes. nice tho..
eh nth much le went back home arnd 6 plus..
haiz tired tired tired! lack of sleep! =(


-pls dun waste my sms by not replyin me!
jus let me know if u really not gonna reply
my msg , so i wun be wastin my sms!
though is 500 free*-

`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 8:10 AM;__

friends? fuck off lah... my foot

dont really feel very good these
few days. i've accept the fact tt
we'll nvr be able to meeet again!
so yup dun wanna go any further
on tt. ended story * no more tears
for u anymore! and i believe time will
heal the wounds inside of me!
today didnt do much. went out with
rongxin to Lot 1 ( we saw limin,
jeanie and winnie!!) all become so chio
after one month no see den after tt to
causeway point.(we saw minyi!) haha
with basketball! bb freak?okay so shop for
some make up stuff and earing studs.
then went for dinner! hahas really early man..
so got this weird guy go arnd askin every
ppl for money? coins? yups he said he
wanna call his mother ? lk wtf
he dressed until so fadshion and
he is lk 40 plus ot sth.. which DONT looks
lk he got no money! gosh some ppl
gave him some coins but most they dont!
omg. he looks more lk a cheater? pffft.
okay and the way he dress was lk so damn
'cool'? okay lah ! earin rings all he have..
so i dun believe he dun have money ...
okay so wadever.. so back home abt 6..
got kinda pissed by some ppl when i online!
haiz dun wish to say the name lah but
hopefully she noe who she is.!.
and one more thing is
PLS DONT ACT AS IF U REALLY CARE
when the fact is tt acctually U R NOT!
got so fucked-up with this type of ppl!
i had enough! and i dun nid ur concern
when u aint really concern abt me!
fuck off will u? wads the point of doin tt?
to hell with u pls!

-dun act as though u really care for
ur frens when acctually u aint at all!-

`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 9:47 PM;__

cant sleep

Grrrr.. now is only 4.35am..
guess wad? I CANT SLEEP!
i'm so tired but yet my eyes
didnt want to close up!
i'm boreddddddddddddddd.
coz nobody is online! i'm all alone here!
wad the hell m i thinkin i also dunnoe!
i jus cant sleep ! and suddenly
suddenly suddenly i thought of
the past! grrr. my mind full
of SHIT now! i'm sufferin from some
illness!?? y the hell m i feelin this
way!? shud i meet him tml?
or i mean this afternoon?!
i dunnoe! i feel lk meetin him up
for one last time but i hate to
get hurt again! i'm confussed!
boii every thing u said it hurts me!
no matter how sweet or crap it is
i still get hurt! shud i meet him?
or do u think i shud not meet him?
i wanna see him for this very last
time! is so damn true! but cant i dun
get hurt? bleahh* i'm tokin cock!


- i hate u, i hate everything u said
causin me the pain that u nvr knew!-

`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 5:49 AM;__

wad a fuckin day!

wad a fuckin day i have!
i was kinda okay in the mornin,
and dunnoe y suddenly feel lk
playin maple! yea kill my loneliness.
so yups decided to download.
okay so i download from the website
for lk 2 hours plus? yea and it jus
stuck at the 51% which got me totally
pissed! and yup i wait for lk half
an hour but it was still 51%!
so yea i canceled ! and i asked
veron to send me tru` msn.
yea and lk few hours later,
FINALLY the thingy been send
to me safe and sound!
but guess wad?! it cant work!
wtf mann... okay so i got totally
pissed off! and i uninstall the whole thing!
so yea and she said i nid to go to
the website and download and stuff.
so i go but i download the wrong thing!!
fuckk.. i got sooo oo pissed!!!
everything went so so wrong mann.
wads happenin? grrr.. everythin seem
so so wrong!
okay so have been waitin for his reply
for the whole afternoon?! but he didnt!
he didnt let me noe if his "see first" is
wanna meet or dun want! so yea i assume
he dont want lah.. so from now on
i will not meet him again! i'm tired!
i dun wish to wait lk an idiot here!
i dun wish to be a fool for thinkin
tt u're acctually thinkin of me tooo!
seriously i'm TIRED!
haiz hope tml gonna ends better!


-u fucked my life up!-

`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 7:58 PM;__

amanda i miss ya!

another post for today!
as i was lyin on my bed
this afternoon. i was thinkin
of Amanda! i'm still thinkin
of her now! i miss her so much!
omg lk so suddenly i thought of
her and suddenly i miss her so much!
and yeash i miss winnie! lols
i feel so weired sia! i miss winnie!
coz her smiles? and every time
she call herself 'baichi'? lols yups!

`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 8:52 PM;__

i feel so so sick these few days.
i dun noe y. but everywhere i go
i feel so cold!i stay at home and sleep,
i feel cold? yea and i wear my jacket
and stuff but i still feel so cold
and worst still i'm shiverin!
i'm so weak now. i didnt have
the mood doin anythin except
S-L-E-E-P-I-N-G!!!
i'm jus too tired to do anythin!
i dun even feel lk movin my ass.
pffft. wad's wrong with me?
y do i feel this way?
my goosebumps appear
every now and then.. tts so
disgaustin!
haiz so yea i'm always so weak!
cant do anythin. and no use
takin those medicines EVERYDAY.
i guess is really useless!.
i didnt get any better in any way.
i feel worst! i fell so weak after i
took the medicine! i feel sleepy!
i feel lk i'm gonna die soon real
soon! coz is jus a torturin for me
to take those medicines!
wads more the medicines r lk
LIDUID form? fuck tt ..
i hate it! its jus so sucky!
so yup went down to buy dinner
with my bro.. guess wad? i was
shiverin with cold! i feel tt
way everytime when i'm
at the expose area!
so yea passby the fairprice
and tts the exact place where
a young lady threw her new born
baby down the buildin! -fewdays ago!-
eek.. and i was lk crazy and
keep thinkin of tt incident! yuccks.
so my bro said i'm crazy? i really am!
hahas..
did i mention tt i asked him out?
yesh yesh i did! but obviously
he reject me in a very'nice' way!
which can be so 'nice' tt my
brokenheart shattered into
million pieces once more!
everythin he said simply hurts me!
maybe he dun feel tt way coz he turn
me down in a very 'nice' way!
boii, i wudnt eat u up when i see u!
i wouldnt scream or wadever when
i meet u! and further more i woundt
even hug u or kiss u when i see u again!
i woudnt dare to look into ur eyes!
and i wouldnt dare to tok to u!
AND u asked y do i wanna meet u ?
boii u noe by askin tt makes me think
tt u dun ever want to see me again!!
i jus wanna see u for one last time!
well maybe next time i might still
bump into u somewhere or wadsoever
but tts gonna be totally different!
coz i'm very sure when i see u the nxt
time i probably gonna avoid u!
for this one last time i hope to see u!
but u r so reluctant! u hate to see me?
u dun wish to see me anymore?
u dun wish me to appear in ur own
world anymore? n u dun wish to
have HuiJuan exist in this world?
boii. jus tell me if u think tt way!
i'll make sure i'll NEVER appear
infront of u!dun have to find excuses
sayin how busy u r! coz u aint
lk tt b 4 we break! and out of
of sudden u said u're so busy!
busy with this and that!maybe u're
really tt busy! but cant u spare
some time to go out with me jus
for tt one last time in our life time?
dun say u see first coz bullshit u do!
u said u see first lk before ur camp?
till now? how many days u want to see?
jus let me noe if u really dun wish
to meet me again! dun make me
wait for ur ''see first'' lk a fool here!

-let me noe if tts wad u're thinkin!-

`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 7:22 PM;__

dun advoid me pls.

fated to be this way!
hey frenss i love u all ...
and the other 4ass! love ya'll to bits.
at least ronxing she still called me to chat
on the phone though she might seem
tt she dun give a damn.. well she killed my
loneliness. keep me far away from those
sad topics tt i think of everyday!
I'm healin? i guess so. but yeas i still need
time! he seem to be avoidin me.
i guess. i'm not sure. i dun noe and i dun
wish to noe too.coz i dun wan another
broken heart as i can take it no more.
he seems happy? yes he is happy!
so yup as wad teng said at her tagboard

tingz: time will heal and mend every single
wounds or injuries of ur broken heart..
let it go if it wasn't urs.. it's oso a kind of
happiness when u c e person u love is happy...
cheer up! =)
so yea he is happy so y m i still in this state?
i shud be stronger .i shud be happy.i shud
get back to who i used to be! the happy Juan
not the sad one ! teng u'r so sweet sia.
i cried neh.. when i read ur tagboard and the
and taggins` tt i had at my own tagboard
and the other asses. hehex so touchin.!
thx for been there when i nid u all!
oh and as for the alcohol thingy.
when r we goin? i seriously need alcohol!
and gals pls let me noe how many days
r we goin to stay at veron's hse?
oh and wad we need to bring?
i feel lk stayin 3 days! hehex yup
seriously leh...

Chenswee:on 31st dec 2004(11.59pm )
write all ur pain on a balloon den let it fly
to heaven! dude! how true is this?
haiz maybe i can try it! hehex..

-u gave me the love i needed
and left me with a brokenheart-

`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 9:13 PM;__

last time i gonna get hurt i promise.

once again i got hurt deeply
i cried .. and i promised myself
this time is gonna be the last time
really very very very last time
i cry bcos of u .. no more tears. i promise!
i jus need alcohol to get myself drunk,
get away from this cruel reality,
and i dun wanna feel the pain, no more.
is jus too much for me i cant take it...
my broken heart is bleedin...
u hate to hurt someone!
but why ? why do u hurt me
so deeply? i cant take it anymore.
i need to get away from all these.
i hate my life! it jus suckz big time.
u gave stupid reason and u wan
me to accept it. i jus cant.
everyday i regret! regret tt
y am i so stupid to make such
stupid decision in the first place.
i regret sayin tt first. i regret .
yea and i really regret doin tt!
every time i hear ur name
the memories cum back again!
i keep closin my eyes but
i jus cant block u out!
baby i miss ya far too much.
and now i realised i cant live w/o u.
is jus to late . u will nvr be mine
again! and the next time i see u.
u will be holdin someone else
hand and pass by infront of me.
that someone never gonna be me again!
i left u in the first place and now
i wanna get u back ? wad logic is this?
Huijuan u gotta wake up mann.
hes nvr gonna be urs anymore!
yeash i didnt appreciate things
and now they r gone i'm cryin here..
well serve me right i guess!
cant blame anybody now..
i hate myself! yea i really do!
-message for him-
haiz hopefully u gonna
visit my blog soon.
forget abt everything i said last
nite. pretent tt i nvr say anything!
i guess u'r rite, we shall remain
as frens or if u treat me as ur best
fren. i dun wish to distract u ,
dun wish to divert ur relationship with god!
tts wad u said.. and i dun wish to get
hurt again. coz is jus too much
and i cant take it anymore!
u said i dun understand how u feel
coz i'm not a christian! boii i am
a christian jus tt i am NOT a good one!
haiz useless sayin all tt now!
so let us jus concentrate on our
studies and stuff... and hopefully u
gonna remember me as ur best fren
for life. if u have any problems
hopefully i gonna be the first fren
tt u reach out for help and i promise
i'll always be there for u !
though some times i might not
be able to help u but yea i wud still
try my best. be it in family problems,
relationship or even frenship.
i will alway be there for u.
take care my dear fren,
best of luck in wadever u do!
may all ur wishes cum true for ya!
see ya!
yups i assume tt u didnt
receive my sms coz u didnt reply!
so yea hopefully u gonna read my blog!


-all tears fall forever inside a brokenheart-
- i guess i'm a fool for thinkin tt ur're thinkin of me -

`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 6:37 PM;__

baby i want u back.

oh baby i want u back! can i?
i really hope so ya noe..
i dun want to give up anymore
i dun want to be the 'yixuan' lk wad u said
i dun wan i dun wan i jus want u backk..
i wan u by my side i wan u to be there

for me every time i miss u..

yea i want u backkk...
okay i sound despo now.
he wundnt be able to give me the
ans till he cums back from camp.
so yea i gonna wait..
i want him back so badly.
i'm addicted to him...
well baby i want u backkk...

*baby i want u backkkk*

`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 6:02 PM;__

see doctor.

argh cant slp the whole night!
i switched off my com at arnd 12 plus
last night. (is early) okay so deceided
to watch tv , but i dun hvae the mood.
so went to bed. but i cant slp i miss
him too much i guess. pics of him
keep floatin on my mind.
till 3 plus and i managed to get some
slp but not long coz i woke up at 5plus..
and from then on i didnt slp anymore..
and i started to think abt the past again.
haiz so arnd 7.10 my hp suddenly vibrate..
guess who send the msg? is HIM...
oh mann at least he still have the heart
to tell me tt he is leavin for camp and
ask me to takecare ? okay and stuff..
so yep was kinda happy then so replyed
him and stuff so waitin for him to reply
back again but he didnt till 11 plus.
okay so nvm i'm still happy.
oh den suddenly i saw a lizard
a damn small lizard in my room..
oh gosh! i hate lizards and i scare of them?
yea they r disgaustin.. yuckks..
so i kinda scared so quickly ran out of the
room and wake them up.. haha to get
rid of the lizard.. eeekkk.... gross...
okay so went to see doctor AGAIN ..
okay this time jus to take some
medicine coz i had finished them all.
oh and the doctor said i'm still havin
low blood pressure.. lk wtf mann.
he said i dun have enough blood and
i nid to take medicine till i get enough
blood? and till my blood pressure is normal?
eekkk the medicine is s o sucky and i nid
to take for lk months and months? fuckk mann..
haiz i'm such a weakling mann.
i nidd medicine every in order to survive.
to have a better health. i hate myself!
seriously i really hate myself sometimes!
okay so wadever it is i've been slackin
the whole day. and life gonna sucks even more
till 9th dec i guess. haiz his camp till 9 and
veron went for chalet till8 .. argh.. life suck lahh..

-baby i miss u i'm too lost in u
rite now i nid u more den ever-

`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 5:24 PM;__

miss ya

okay so yep he didnt sms me?
have been few days since
the last time he online?
yea and as usual she came to chat with me
on msn. and as usual she tok abt him?
oh and as usual she thinks tt he understnd
her alot and they both understand each
other so well? oh wadever.
i dun wish to noe seriously.
i get jealous? yea i do and i am now.
and i seem to screw up my life.
i give up on him and helpin someone to get him?
wtf? wad the hell am i doin?
i scewed up my life mann. it jus sucks.

`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 11:45 AM;__

depressed!

arghhh i'm depressed!
no matter how hard i trythe smile i
used to have will nvr be the same again!
i cant seem to control my emotions!
i jus cant. oh baby i'm too lost in u !
i miss u so much tt i hope u'r by my
side right now at this moment!
everything is jus too late now...
i guess no point sayin all tt.
went veron's hse reach there abt
10 plus and after tt i played with
the tarot card.. oh mann is freakin true!
i cant believe it at first so i tried AGAIN!
is so damn true. really really true!!!
is freaky! eeekkk... cant believe is so true!
oh gosh... oh yea heard tt the shutter is niceee?
argh i wanna watch!! anybody in terested?
pls give me a call!!! i wanna watch!!!
okay so sms-ed him and stuff..
was kinda disapointed coz he dun seem
to understand at all since the very beginin.
he dun understand me at all i wud say!
he accept all the stupid reasons tt i gave!
he dun bother to find the real reason out?
yea he dont! he dun seem to bother.
everythings changed! and is negative ones.
i hate it i hate my life right now.
i cant control my tears so i burst out...
i was lyin on her bed. she tot i was
havin flue out of sudden?
nah gal i cant control my emotions tts all.
i hate the feelins when i read the smses.
my heart is bleedin so badly...
and is broken into million pieces.!
i hate it i jus hate it!
boii i miss u so much!
yes i believe u deserve a better gal.
and i believe tt i dun deserve u at all
but so wad? do u noe the real reason?
u're jus too popular till i find myself
so insecure. i'm worry tt one day u
might jus dump me. u're jus too popular.
so i accept the fact and i let go of u?
before i get dump?
u wanna be popular? or u shud i say
u wanna be famous? but i jus hate
it when u'r too famous coz boii
i feel insecure!
u think i'm selfish?
boii i admit i m but dont u think
tt u're selfish too? coz u only wan
to be famous and nvr spare a thought
for me... u're famous among gals
yes i get jealous but so wad?
do u acctually give a damn about
how i feel? u dun even noe how i feel
i bet. i'm not lk some other gals tt u noe!
i'm not! i get jealous yea i do!
i find myself insecure tts wad i always do!
but u dont know! coz u dunt give a damn.
u only think of yourself!
u dont even have time to spare some
thoughts for me! u dont have the time to!
u'r always busy. u're always so busyin
to improve urself so u can get famous!
u only want to be famous.
i dun wish to type them out in the first
place. i tot is no point sayin all tt.
coz i'm jus degradin myself. but boii
i dun care so much anymore.
u thought? u thought i was doin
the best for US? boi i'm not
doin the best for us pls is for U!...
coz u wanna be famous?!?!

`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 12:41 PM;__

tired!!!

okay i'm tired!!! lols tts the first phrase
for the post recently! well i'm really tired!
erm so lets tok abt last night!
erm chat with atiqah(spellin?) on msn!
well our opinions r totally different!
as she thinks tt guys from boi skool
r cute and stuff and she prefer to have a
bf from boi skool rather than mix!
hey gal wads wrong with mix sch guys?
anyway we chatted for kinda long well
tokin to her is lk some sort of 'arguing'
okay fine nvm abt tt!
okay and she tok abt zk?!(not surprise at all!)
and she say she love him as a fren?
yea she likes him so much?
here is the conversation with her.
some parts only eh!.
[08:44:22 PM] `those hu ar: wad u tink of zk may i noe
[08:44:26 PM] `those hu ar: just curious
[08:45:04 PM] $ lackerX[: eh HE SUCKS!!!!!
[08:45:07 PM] $ lackerX[: i hate him!!!!!
[08:45:13 PM] $ lackerX[: he kns!!!!
[08:45:15 PM] `those hu ar: y
[08:45:20 PM] $ lackerX[: dunnoe leh

[08:45:20 PM] `those hu ar: kns?

[08:45:22 PM] `those hu ar: wads tt

[08:45:23 PM] $ lackerX[: jus HATE him bah

[08:45:27 PM] $ lackerX[: kanasai

[08:45:31 PM] `those hu ar: c

[08:45:38 PM] `those hu ar: u guys attached before rite?

[08:45:40 PM] $ lackerX[: y u ask

[08:45:43 PM] $ lackerX[: nah

[08:45:45 PM] `those hu ar: nth

[08:45:48 PM] $ lackerX[: who said tt?

[08:45:49 PM] `those hu ar: just asking

[08:45:54 PM] `those hu ar: i guess onli la

[08:45:55 PM] `those hu ar: haha

[08:45:56 PM] $ lackerX[: lols

[08:45:59 PM] `those hu ar: i gd guesser

[08:46:06 PM] `those hu ar: anw...u realli hate him ar

[08:46:10 PM] $ lackerX[: nah we're jus close frens but now we're nolonger frens liao

[08:46:15 PM] $ lackerX[: yea!!!

[08:46:33 PM] `those hu ar: ic

[08:46:40 PM] `those hu ar: wa lau

[08:46:42 PM] `those hu ar: ur nic

[08:46:48 PM] `those hu ar: nt to tt xtend la

[08:46:53 PM] `those hu ar: u realli ar?!?

[08:47:01 PM] `those hu ar: i tt his nice

[08:47:12 PM] $ lackerX[: he nice?

[08:47:17 PM] $ lackerX[: my foot lah

[08:47:19 PM] $ lackerX[: lols

[08:47:22 PM] `those hu ar: realli ka

[08:47:22 PM] $ lackerX[: u lk him b4?

[08:47:24 PM] `those hu ar: la*

[08:47:25 PM] $ lackerX[: or now

[08:47:28 PM] `those hu ar: er...

[08:47:31 PM] `those hu ar: no!

[08:47:34 PM] `those hu ar: yup

[08:48:03 PM] `those hu ar: i just tink his nice la..i mean his alwaes there wen i nid a guy to tok to la...even if i like him things wont wrk out between us

[08:48:23 PM] $ lackerX[: aiyo nth is imossible de la

[08:49:19 PM] `those hu ar: realli la

[08:49:31 PM] $ lackerX[: y?

[08:49:33 PM] $ lackerX[: oh

[08:49:37 PM] $ lackerX[: ur frens lk him arh

[08:49:45 PM] $ lackerX[: so u dun wanna fifht` arh?

[08:49:47 PM] `those hu ar: no la

[08:49:48 PM] $ lackerX[: fight`

[08:50:05 PM] `those hu ar: no la

[08:50:13 PM] `those hu ar: no ones noe him xcept me

[08:50:18 PM] `those hu ar: i realli like him

[08:50:22 PM] `those hu ar: as a fren

[08:50:36 PM] `those hu ar: dont noe abt the others la

[08:50:39 PM] `those hu ar: as in love

[08:50:40 PM] `those hu ar: yup

[08:50:57 PM] $ lackerX[: u inlove with him

[08:50:58 PM] $ lackerX[: omg omg

[08:50:59 PM] $ lackerX[: lols.

* haiz kinda lame ! nvm

yea so i guess i kinda missed out

the fun tt the 3s had yesterday .

as i was slping like a dead pig! hehex

tired tired tired tired!

haiz later goin veorn hse ! eh play mahjong

again? hehex i guess i gonna slp

there! lols too tired to do anythin

not even have my meals!

yea nth much le gotta stop here.

tc all my frens and enjoy readin yea..

- been lonely since e day u went away!-

`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 12:18 AM;__

tired!!!

Oh man i'm tired!! now is 7.10 and i have not
sleep yet! how m i suppose to work later on?
i'm so tired and my eyes r gonna close!
i seriously need a cup of coffee!
haiz so came back from work this mornin
at arnd 8pm coz waited for my bro and xiaowei
for some reason.. so back home at abt 8 plus.
so when we reach my hse we started to play
mahjong! wad a rotten luck i have today?
well i lose and dint win any round!
haiz.. sian..
oh den at arnd 11 plus mj called me
and she said tt we gonna go orchard
and me & veron neet to hand in the $20
for the disco thingy! yea broke soon!!
haiz so after tt we met kelly and we
headed to lucky plaza? for lunch! oh b4
tt we went taka.. eh nth much loh..
so went to city hall to shop!
oh gosh my legs are seriously nid a
massage!=) lols walk so long seh..
haiz some more i so tired!
okie so i saw a LOVIN couple
outside the arcade!
argh cant stand them! i got so
fuck up coz of tt..
i dun wanna see and i dun wish to see
them too!
okie wadever la so erm only 3ses`
went out together coz the other
2 i think they got sth on so cant join us
but is was funn afterall. we laugh lk siaoed.
oh fun fun fun..
but i kinda got moodswing when
i was smsin with HIM at the orchard.
yep and i told him i hate him alot..
and stuffffs... he cant be bother alr..
so yea guess tts the end of us le bah..
well i shudn't said all tt but some how
i jus cant control myself... nvm abt tt
i still got to stay stronger!
haiz so came home at arnd 6.30.
now gonna slp soon.. i can only slp for
2 hr leh.. sian.. haiz nvm lah
i gtg le cya arnd! tc..


[Veron help me change the layout.]
[tml wake up early coz i goin ur hsr early!]

`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 7:09 PM;__

SHE SUCKZ!

So okay i'm tired as usual!
jus came back home lk few mins ago!7.30am now!
i'm too lazy to move as i'm so so so tired!
Gosh!yesterday i only slp for 2 and a half hrs?
wtf i feel so weak now. i m tired but i still
want to throw all my angerz at this blog.
i got so pissed off last night as usual lah!
so not surprise at all.
i got so pissed for some so damn
stupid reasons! Veron the reason r indeed
STUPID aint they?
okay i dun noe y do i have the feelin of sour
lk wad veron wrote in frenster!
i dunnoe y i suddenly have those feelings?
makes me hard to breath as if i'm sufferin
from some kind of serious illness!
i hate it yea coz it hurts and i guess veron
noe how tt feelin is! coz she had those
feelins often i'm sure!
*tts for last night*
okay so today this mornin i was lk
so fuckin mad at tt stupid old indian bitch!
shes such a mother fucker okay!
so i was sittin down there doin my stuffs
and the boys were lk makin lots of noises
when they r suppose to kip their BIG mouth
ziped! but tat old indian bitch she didnt
make any comments on how noisy the guys r!
and guess wad ? she picked on me seh!
fuck her mann..
i was wearin a short lah which is the knee
length lah.. not so short DUH! and i some how
sit with my left leg on the chair
so it means tt can see my leg!
and guess wad she said?
she goes lk ' ah moi ah today u wear shorts
and sit lk this tomoro u wear mini skirt also sit lk this ah? '
i was lk so fucked up! and i NEVER even wear skirt
to work for her infomation!!!
so i goes lk ' hey aunty if i really wanna
wear a mini skirt tml it is still
NON OF YOUR DAMN BUSINESS'
so i stared at her and i kip mumbling to chengjie!
and u noe wad i was mumblin abt?
i was simply cursin her family to die
soon reall soon!and i curse unitl her
next generation and next next generation!
oh man i feel so gd when i did tt!
i noe i'm mean but she jus deserve tt!
zi zuo zi shou!
damn bloody hell old bitch
with few teeth and she still can tok so
much crap abt me!!! she jus deserve those cursin!
oh i really hope she will not survive till tonite!
coz i dun wish her damn fuckin face to appear
infront of me! i jus hate her to core!
oh yea then yesterday she oso tok crap abt
chenjie and me! said tt we cannot makan
at the 4th floor we must go to the canteen!
lk wads her prob mann.? y must she care so
much? shes not the boss alrite! she is jus
lk us one ordinary worker except
tat she is the damn freakin old bitch!
wad the hell is her prob mann? picked on
us for wad lk she gonna earn extra(service) money?
i doubt so! hey old bitch pls mind ur own daiji!
dun care so much abt others
business lah old freakin bitch!
if u got so much time den is time for u to
think of wad ya gonna do with ur funerel!(SOON)
argh!! i'm feelin much better now!
phew* i feel gd!
i love myself!!
[ppl pls dun think tt i m mean jus
put urself in this situation and u gonna
love me lk how much i love myslef!]
MMMUUUAAACCCKKKZZZ!
I LOVE HUIJUAN!!!!

`_______LISTEN TO MY HEART_______;__ 7:52 AM;__

MYSELF;
` Hui Juan.
` EKYO.
` 06.06.1987.
` Emotional.

LOVES;
` Him<3.
` Movies.
` Shopping.
` Music.
` Green.
` Pink.
` Brown.
` Black.

DON'T JUDGE ME;

LINKS.
Ah Boy<3
huiteng
jasmine
jian rui
karen
meijin
Meiling
Nerissa
Rebecca
teresa
sheena
veron
vicky
wushuang
LESBIES*


MEMORIES;
July 2004 August 2004 September 2004 October 2004 November 2004 December 2004 January 2005 February 2005 March 2005 April 2005 May 2005 June 2005 July 2005 August 2005 September 2005 October 2005 November 2005 December 2005 January 2006 February 2006 February 2007